Update: Small Progress
Things are... meh, I dunno. They're not good, they're not any worse. I heard from Cory which helped a lot. A few times I've tried to start an e-mail to him and just couldn't bring myself to do it... so thank God he's pretty good about checking my blog. (Cory, seriously, thank you!)
My baby brother is gonna come home for a visit soon. I swear, anything happens to me and that boy is the first to jump up and help, even if he's hundreds of miles away.
I logged onto MSN yesterday and Jay was on. Funny timing, since he's only on like once a month. But he stayed on for hours to talk to me, and it really did help. Jay always helps. I've mentioned him in this blog a million times. Anyways, he let me rant about everything. I told him how I think Stuart is depressed. His mom has always acted like he couldn't do anything right. Nothing has ever been good enough for her. Michelle betrayed him and got pregnant seven years ago. And now she's doing drugs and run off, leaving him with a situation he didn't even want to consider.
But, I'm the only person who he can hurt. All these people can fuck him over, hurt him, but he can't hurt them back. So he hurt me.
I mentioned this to him last night, because thankfully he's A) keeping to his promise of not staying away and B) letting me talk about things like this. And when I did, he admitted it could be true. That's gotta mean something right?
And I've pointed out to him the changes I've seen in
him:
- sleeping less
- less energy
- less appetite
- quicker
temper
- drinking more
- not enjoying his hobbies, even video games for
the most part
He admitted they were all true. He tried to argue the drinking one, since he never really drank much before, but that was my point. Why's he drinking now? It's not an insane amount, I don't think he's really even gotten drunk lately, but he has a few almost every night it seems.
So I think I'm making some progress. Progress in convincing him to stay? I don't know. I asked him what he's going to do Tuesday. He's going back to work, won't be able to see Steve much, will start stressing out again, and he wants to do it alone? I think that got him thinking. But I think I'm definitely making progress in convincing him he's sick... and that might be more important right now.
