An Awkward Christmas Surprise

Right... I have a journal here too! Haha. I'm just going to repost what I put on LiveJournal Christmas night...

So my dad and Jeffrey let me sleep in until 8 am! I know, I was amazed. I was expecting a five am wake up call. LOL. So I get up... Jeff got me Jerry McGuire and Fools Rush In and The Vanishing (Kiefer!!!). Dad got me a $50 gift card for Zellers (Canada's Walmart), a fish aquarium and $300. Yup, good haul. Around twelve we went to my mom's and then to my aunt's. And then we get to the surprise...

Jay is on the island. :\ Yeah, shocked me to. I mean, how could he fly to the island from Alberta and not let me know he's coming??? My aunt Darlene is there and my cousin Danny. My uncle Wayne, aunt Pat and my grandmother showed up. We're all goofing around (it's actually going better than expected)... Danny is trying to swap my present for his (he got red, I got black) and we're watching the football game when there's a knock on the door. We're not expecting anyone so my aunt opens it slowly and we could hear these muffled voices. All of a sudden Jay is in the middle of the room. He's taller than I remember... and he's been working out. He stood there in ragged blue jeans and a half open work shirt. I was speechless.

I was still half turned towards my cousin in mid joke and everything just froze. It was like something out of a movie, no joke. He stood there, apparently with more of an audience then he expected, and everyone else was confused. No one knows Jay... no one knows of Jay for Christ's sake! He's standing there, hair hanging in his eyes... couple days growth on his face and he's fucking silent?!?!?!?! Frustrating.

Finally after what felt like forever (just two or three seconds no doubt, lol) he cleared his throat. He swallowed, smiled, mumbled something I never caught (Merry Christmas maybe???) and handed me this beautifully wrapped gift. I sat there just looking at him for a minute but he motioned to the gift so I unwrapped it. Poor guy... I'm such a pain. I carefully pull tape off and open gifts so slowly. LOL. But I really wanted to keep the beautiful silver wrapping paper. When I finally opened it it was a beautiful dark wood box, about 5"x5". Inside is twelve beautiful stones all shaped like hearts and two chains (one long, one short) and a braclet. It's absolutely beautiful.

The stone's are Amethyst, Red Jasper, Aventurine, Pink Quartz, New Jade, Rose Quartz, Crystal, Turquoise, Tiger's Eye, Hematite, Goldstone and Sodalite. They're all amazing!

Anyways, I'm looking at this and Danny is right beside me and even he's speechless. I heard him gasp a little even! I looked up at Jay and he looked like he was about to pass out. I wanted to comfort him but I just... it's Jay!!! Finally I managed a smile and his looked just as awkward as mine felt. He said, "I know you're not big on jewelry but I saw those and just... they're perfect for you." He came over and knelt down in front of me... pretty sure he was ignoring the audience we had, and took the Red Jasper one out and put it on the long chain. "This one is why I bought it. It reminded me of... well you remember the sunrise in Jasper? It was this color almost." With that he put it around my neck.

He wasn't kidding when he said it was perfect! The chain is the exact right length. The charm sits perfectly at the top of my cleavage. And it's so beautiful. He whispered "Merry Christmas" and said he's at his parents for the week and... left. :\ My family was cool, no one asked. Danny looked like he was about to explode so I pulled him aside and told him about Jay. And for those of you who don't know....

Jay and I met when I moved to Alberta. He lived in Red Deer, just an hour and a bit south of me. He was older... I was 18 he was 35ish (yes... I actually don't remember his exact age.) He wasn't the perfect guy... not even close. But he was a sweet guy and a good friend. He was originally from the island so he understood what I missed. He bought me a beautiful poster of a sunset over the ocean once when I was holed up in my dorm room sick as a dog to give me something to look at while I was laid up. He also delivered chicken noodle soup and tea.

Anyways, he was always interested in a relationship but I was eighteen. And I was missing Darren. And he... stuck with me. He was such a good friend. Then there was this one weekend where he "kidnapped" me and took me to Jasper to get away from everything... right before I met Roy. It was still winter and cold as hell... but it was all good. We stayed up all night watching movies and laughing and then he kissed me. We were laughing on a bed but he never even made the suggestion of something else. But I... turned away. I went out to get fresh air just as the sun was rising and he came out behind me. I tried forgetting about that night... but I remember he put his hand on my shoulder and I never turned around. I never looked at him, but I can't forget what he said. "When... if you're ever ready, find me." And then he was gone. (We'd driven my truck so I dunno how he got home)

After that we never saw each other, rarely spoke on the phone. Mainly it was MSN. He was still there when I needed someone to rant to at 4am. He was there through all the Roy stuff, and the Rick bullshit. Oh my God... he was ready to go kill Rick when he took my stuff! And when I got in that car accident he wanted to drop everything and come get me. When I moved home he was so mad, he felt I would be better off with him but I couldn't do that... rely on him that much.

And then today.... What the fuck was that??? I don't know what to think. I'm still... kind of numb. I haven't taken the necklace off yet. He's leaving Friday I guess, so I guess I should figure out what I'm doing. Maybe I'll call him tomorrow, pretty sure I have his mom's number somewhere.

Oh yeah, and my aunt couldn't believe these jewels. Apparently this box is worth well over $100 dollars. :\